any day now

I'm getting impatient waiting for this baby to come out. I try to think of other things but I end up surfing topics like inducing pregnancy, warning signs, 2 weeks over due. Now I've resort to blogging which no one has done in a long while. Seems like we've all gotten accustomed to short sentences, instant updates, the accepted signs of a society in demand for instant gratification.

Well this mama is impatient to begin with. For every suggestion given to help naturally induce labor, there's a source that says it doesn't work. I get so anxious that I can't sleep at night. The guilty part is that I'm not sure if I'm anxious to meet him or axious that he's ruining my plans at work. Ideally, he'll come ON time or this weekend, which would be perfect timeing for my relief doc to step in and maximizes the time that my sister is here to help. Yes, I know any parent reading this would think I'm crazy for thinking that way. And ideally my baby will never cry and I can easily raise him in my office only two weeks post delivery and he will nurse on schedule.

Well, at least that's the plan.

a new meaning for "MOM"

It just hit me that I'm going to be a mom. Suddenly that word carries an entire different meaning. It used to be a word I associated with whining, needy, demands. An emotion of comfort, safety and love. Now it's a word weighed with responsibilities, expectations, happiness and apprehension.

spank me

Study: Spanking Kids Leads to More Aggressive Behavior

Well, I don't know if I agree with that. I was spanked and I'm ok.

After reading the article carefully, this is what I understand from the study. No spanking under 12mo and no spanking more than 2x/mo before age of 5. ah...I see, that's why I'm ok.

http://news.yahoo.com/s/time/20100412/hl_time/08599198101900

Where have my blogger friends gone? People have stopped blogging and their last blog usually ends with something like "FYI I'm still here, just busy will try to blog more" That statement is worse than a goodbye! That's a complete denial statement because we all know, and records show, that that's pretty much the last blog we'd see for a while. There may be a few intermittent blogs but I think it's more the user checking in to make sure they haven't forgotten how to navigate through the blog site.

hmm.. wow, I'm feeling kinda bitchy today. I received a negative email last night and it's still pissing me off. It's something about how I didn't communicate a point to her, well, dang it, I can't communicate if I don't get a return call! Am I supposed to spead talk to get the message across on the voicemail?

What else is pissing me off? I was just reading through a Toyota forum about peoples opinions on Toyotas. Majority of posts state what they think then makes a clear point to state that their opinion is "just their opinion". why is that necessary to write down? it's a forum, of course it's your opinion, who elses would it be?

People who bitch about useless shit piss me off too. If you're going to bitch it better be something worth my time to listen to, but don't take two minutes of my life to tell me how your entire day was ruined because you ran out of eye liner in the morning and you didn't know what to do, and you got to work late, and now you're frustrated because you have to go to Target to buy another one at lunch because you can't show your face! Are you friggin kidding me? THAT ruins your day? That friggin email from the same person who says I have communication issues ruins a day.. not an eye-liner.

ugh, so irritated, I'm going to finish that 6" chocolate cake I have then go for a sugar high run.

CBS5 news:
There's a new pill for head lice, but prevention is best.
to avoid head lice in children, kids should avoid head butting.
In other words, no head to head contact.

PROUD

I'm going to miss the Olympics in Vancouver.
All the coverage and attention in Vancouver makes me proud to show off my hometown.
I love the "you gotta be here" commercial, and the many nice things new articles write about Canadians. We are nice people.

watch the Olympics

This is the only time I've ever been such a huge fan of the Olympics. It's only because it's in my hometown. I watch it just to get a glimpse of home and it makes me so proud to tell patients "that's my hometown!"

I'm bumming around online and decided to revisit Friendster. Remember Friendster? I always will, after all that's where I met my husband, through a mutual friend-ster. The site has made some changes with bright colours and a wall just like Facebook. Except everyone's dusty wall is now spammed with porn videos and half naked girls. Then I snoop around to see who is still making updates, but looks like anyone I care about have made their move.

I wonder how many times in my lifetime will I be recreating my profile, from Asian Avenue to myspace to friendster, facebook to whatever is next. It's an interesting way to review your perception of yourself.

sometimes I get so stressed I just need a smoke.

going solo

I want to believe that I always get what I want.

I want to believe it so that I'll have no reservations aiming high.

I wanted to work alone and I got it. Now I'm scared shitless.
That whole body sweat in the morning with my heart beating at a 100? It's not hot flashes, not my hot down blanket. I had to be told it's called an anxiety attack. I wake up every morning to an anxiety attack? Here I go... on my own, wish me luck.

It's Vancouver!

It's nice that so many movies are filmed in Vancouver. Every once in a while I always recognize a location, even if it's not a Vancouver landmark, just the streets, trees and homes remind me of how pretty the city is.

mom's so smart

i'm stuck doing online traffic school, that, and I'm so irritated at receiving my first ticket after 9 yrs in Cali. I'm surprised at the volume of contents they expect you to read. 5 chapters and over 100 pages per chapter. I'm so ADD I have about 5 tabs going on as I switch from FB, skype with my mom, traffic school reading (paragraph at a time) and shopping. After a few pages I tried to go back to a previous page on traffic safety and that's when I learned they don't let you go back. That's retarded, so once you "continue" to the following page you're expected to have taken notes and be ready for the chapter quizz? I let out a huge "F***" when I found out. Then mom says "why don't you start coping the pages? then the answers will all be there like an open book test" doh....thanks mom and Adobe

what do you do with someone who lacks accountability? I thought some people just don't know how to admit to their own mistakes, too much pride perhaps. But now I wonder if they even see the mistakes they have made. It's impossible to reason with these types of people.

false hopes

I thought change was going to happen, but the only thing that's happening is us going in circles.
Nothing has changed.

oh yah....

SHIT IS GOING DOWN!!

very slowly and in circles

Because I have a stupid in the building.

ka boom

I'm about to explode.

There's a stupid in the building.
I can't stand stupid people.

$799 for a hike!

A few months ago the Travel Network had a episode on Havasu Falls near the Grand Canyon. It showed the gorgeous falls followed by the 2008 flash flood that nearly killed 5 people. The Canyon belongs to the Havasu Tribe. Near the evening of the flash fllood a local native gave a casual warning to over 200+ campers at the base, which no one took to heart. A few hours later the water level rose 5 ft and continued to climb till 2am. 5 campers were stranded on one side of the river, climbing on top of trees to save their own lives. Despite the suspense of the recap CB and I decided we wanted to go there, the falls were truly beautiful. We started our research and to reach the falls we have to drive to Hualapai Hilltop 70+ miles away from South Rim Grand Canyon. Guests must leave their cars there and either hike, horseback or helicopter to the village. The campsite is another 2 miles walk away. I thought it'll be easier and cheapest to go with a group but I was so wrong. Most organized tours charge $799 for 3 days 2 nights! They provide transportation from Flagstaff, mule transport for backpacks only, provide all gears and food. but for $799??? You still have to camp and eat camp food!! Cruise ships charge less than that for a week!

Screw that. We already own our gear so we're going to do it our way. 13 hour drive over night leaving Wednesday after work. Then hike our asses down 10miles in 80F+ heat. Carry our own food and water and if we're lucky we'll get to enjoy the falls by 1pm. Final cost excluding gas and food? $70. Where the hell do they charge $799? Even if we hired a mule to carry our backpacks it's only an additional $40.

update in a few weeks.

oh screw me.

That's it, I'm done. I spent the last four months sticking a thermometer in my mouth, peed on a stick, charted every event of my day, I have a reproductive book that I read over and over again and I'm completely baffled. I can't believe I spent so many years trying NOT to get pregnant just to find out it isn't that easy. I always wondered what the hell those couples were doing taking over a year to get pregnant. Now I know.

sweaty car

HOT HOT HOT I haven't had A/C in my car for the past two years and it's too expensive to fix. Not sure if I can bear another summer.... can't decide if I should fix it or tough it through another summer and look for a used car next year, or lease a car. CB's found a great website swapalease.com you can take over someone elses lease, some owners even offer a cash bonus!

Till then, I'll be losing weight in my mobile sauna.

True Blood

current HBO series that I'm additcted to.
Keeps my mind off shit.

It's time for another move.